Two Wrongs Don't Make A Right

Sometimes we want so desperately to set things right, and in doing so we may be stirring up more trouble for ourselves. They say the road to hell is paved with good intentions, right? It's hard to know where to draw the line when pursuing some sense of justice. We want others to understand how badly we've been wronged, but is continually bringing it up the right thing to do? Holding in our grief is not good either because we end up stewing over unresolved confrontations. Anger is poison, but resentment is when we swallow it. Letting bad people hide behind the shroud of polite tolerance is equally wrong. But whose job is it to teach bad people a lesson? Seeking justice is not the same as getting revenge because I believe the former can be achieved more benignly. I am working a little everyday to set things right, but I need to do it the right way.

I spoke before about trying with difficulty to forgive those who have wronged me. I held it in for so long that now I feel an implosion of emotions that I must sort out. Throughout this process, I have actually achieved greater overall calm. But I am still working on the cathartic exercises that will help me achieve true serenity. Peace of mind is precious to us all because we want to live relatively worry-free, to sleep well at night, to keep our integrity intact. Sometimes we are given burdens that seem almost impossible to bear, and yet unbelievably, even more weight is placed upon us. But what doesn't kill you will make you stronger, and I have never believed that more than now. Where my physical strength may have waned, my mind has gotten stronger in order to fill the deficit. In time, I will be restored to full health again and I will draw on that strength in order to raise my sons and go about my life with more purpose than before. I feel a sense of hope and possibility, but first I must call out those who didn't believe me, those who didn't believe in me, and those whose bad behavior towards me was simply unbelievable. But I will purge with care and caution so that I don't blur the line between seeking justice vs. revenge. As my friend LouAnn so wisely put it, "Remember when you are pointing a finger, there may be four fingers pointing right back at you."