Re-mission

Excruciatingly painful side effects these past few days. Good cheer has been dampened somewhat because this is the real thing now. In these moments, it's terrifying to be alone, but it's not the kind of thing you want anyone to see either. Three full weeks down and two and a half weeks to go before the chemoradiation portion of treatment is over. There will be a 6 to 8 week recovery period before my surgery in September. Long, obliterating naps have been the remedy of choice lately but the reality is there when I wake up. Remission is a word I've been saying over and over in my head because it starts to sound like re-mission instead....which is exactly what I intend to do with my life once I get it back.